A Day With My Son
Today I took my son to school. I kissed him and hugged him. I let him know that I will be there to pick him up. I assured him that I work hard for him. He already knows all this. I tell him everyday. Today I felt the void that my son feels in his life. Today I realized that I am just not enough. While I love him with all my heart, I am just that- one heart. He used to be loved by two hearts. No matter how much I love on him, I cannot kiss both cheeks at once, hug him with four arms, or cuddle with him on both sides. Today I must be strong for him. My face must stay dry and my eyes must stay focused. I must listen when he talks and show that I understand. He tries to stay strong for me too. Who is there for us if we can't be strong? Who picks up Mommy at the end of the day? Today, I cry, hard, on the inside. My mind wanders. My thoughts travel at light speed. My heart is heavy with stabbing pangs of guilt but I will wear a smile. If anyone asks, I will say th
